My Complacency {www.boldlytanya.com}

My Complacency

May 23rd, 2017 Faith

All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teaches us to do what is right. God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work” (2 Timothy 3:16-17 NLT). I have another confession for you. (Why…

Taming Trauma :: a guest post at Cisneros Cafe {www.boldlytanya.com}

Taming Trauma :: A Guest Post @ Cisneros Cafe

Trauma is a tricky beast, always festering and feeding, hoping to eat you alive from the inside out. You survive it, accept it, and hopefully thrive in spite of it. But you are never rid of it. It lingers like the scars it inflicts.

By eighteen years of age, I experienced seven different types of childhood trauma. I handled my trauma by pretending it wasn’t there. As each new trauma visited, I ripped off that piece and hid it away.

Abandonment.

Abuse.

Neglect.

Eventually, all seven traumas were sealed away and buried deep inside.

But trauma chafes and enflames. Although I quarantined my infected parts, they still rotted. The stench permeated my good parts, spoiling them, too. I kept hacking and concealing, but I couldn’t keep up.

God Is Not My Stepdad {www.boldlytanya.com}

God Is Not My Stepdad

May 16th, 2017 Faith

I responded God the same way I responded to my stepdad. Here was this “father figure” with astronomically high standards trying to change my whole life and tell me what to do. I felt like everyone was telling me to love Him because of all the great things He did, not because of who He was. I believe most people were like my mom; they listed his actions as evidence of who He is. But some only loved God for what He did. That isn’t love. That is obligation.

Mom :: Five Minute Friday {www.boldlytanya.com}

Mom :: Five Minute Friday

May 12th, 2017 Five Minute Friday

“I remember your genuine faith, for you share the faith that first filled your grandmother Lois and your mother, Eunice. And I know that same faith continues strong in you” (2 Timothy 1:5 NLT)

Does the faith of my mother continue strong in me? Or does it not apply because she wasn’t biologically mine?

Wildflowers {www.boldlytanya.com}

Wildflowers

May 9th, 2017 Roots

God made me a wildflower, but He placed me with Grandpa so I would learn how to grow, and how to bloom, and how to stand tall and to be who I am made to be, and what to look for, and how to take root, and how to uproot, and what to hang on to, and what to let go of, and how to survive thrive in what ever garden I happen to grow.