To my daughter: STAND

Mar 1st, 2013

Today you had a confession. ¬†You told me you no longer liked pink. I know you still like pink. ¬†Since you have had the power to choose, you have never failed to prefer it to all the other colors. ¬†You chose pink for your room. ¬†You paint your nails pink every chance you get. ¬†You were Pinkalicious (after she ate all the cupcakes) for Halloween….

Grieving Perfection

Feb 26th, 2013

I spent nine months contemplating¬†what my baby would look like when I finally got to meet her. I studied her skeletal ultrasound pictures for hours. I recognized so many of her features from her brother and sister, so in my head, I put those pieces together into a mosaic of the perfect baby. I saw her bright blue eyes. ¬†I saw her brilliant smile. ¬†I…

…for when you are having one of THOSE days

Feb 25th, 2013

I left her zoned in front of¬†Super Why. ¬†That is the one, sure-fire, guaranteed, without a doubt method to keep her contained and enthralled. ¬†Without fail, she dutifully transforms into NATALIE – with the power to help. ¬†With her super power, she aids her fellow super readers as they come to the rescue and solve super problems by looking in a book. Thanks to the…

To my son: I pray you don’t grow up to have mommy issues

Feb 20th, 2013

My dearest son, There are so many things about you that delight me. Your heart is kind. ¬†Your mind is quick. ¬†Your will is strong. ¬†Your devotion is steadfast. You are eccentric, and inquisitive, and witty. You pursue your passions with fervor and zeal. ¬†(Unless it is your violin, but that is okay. ¬†You gotta have priorities.) I love that. I love you. I know…

We didn’t know.

Feb 18th, 2013

I had been having contractions since the blizzard started. ¬†I knew that she was coming. ¬†It was no surprise when the doctor told me to head over to the hospital and get ready to meet our baby girl. I was aching to meet her. ¬†The hours dragged by until it was finally time. This was shaping up to be my smoothest delivery yet. ¬†My first…

What do I say?

Feb 17th, 2013

When it was time to leave the hospital with Natalie, I had a billion questions, but the only one I asked was, “What do I say?” I needed to know how to respond, because I didn’t know what was ‘right’. But I knew I had to get it together. Because Natalie was watching. I know that my thoughts will become her thoughts. ¬†My actions will…

Becoming Less {}

Becoming less

Feb 16th, 2013

For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying¬†to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant¬†of Christ. ¬†Galatians¬†1:10 (ESV) ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬†…